While I don’t pretend to fully know the rationale behind his decision, I can say that I’ve struggled myself with depression and suicide. Like any physically-demanding, socially-vexed form of labor, sex work isn’t easy work— not least because of the stigma and meager income. You give a lot of yourself for what can seem like very little in return. It can take its toll emotionally. The naked body is a vulnerable body after-all. We should remember to celebrate Arpad, the sexy man behind the scenes and in front of the camera who gave so much of himself for our desire, and not condemn a choice privately considered and personally significant enough to result in such extreme measures.
My thoughts go out to his family and friends. He’ll be sorely missed.
~this story was originally written by Colby Keller for BigShoeDiaries